Life update

This blog is not going to all religious but maybe a little.  I love daily devotionals.  I think they are such a great way to start my day and more often than not, the message is something that I needed to hear.

Recently, a few of my devotionals have been about not living fear-filled lives.  It's not what God wanted for us.  Fear is a sign that you don't trust God to do what is best for you.  I very often make decisions from places of fear.  I mean, it took me almost a year to finally go PRN at the hospital.

This devotionals really spoke to me and I decided no more living in fear.  I need to jump with both feet and have faith that the Lord will catch me.  And if he doesn't catch me?  Then there was a lesson to be learned.

So here is my big fat leap of faith.

I really love to shop and have been thinking about opening an online boutique for a while.  I thought that I spent enough time shopping that I should probably figure out a way to get paid to do it.  So I did.

It is definitely still a work in progress and I hope to have a jazzed up logo by the end of March but I like what I have done so far.  I have been shopping.  I have been shopping a lot.  I hope that people like the clothes that I have to offer and I am keeping the faith.

You can check out the store online or like us on Facebook.

He's here!

Beckett Oliver Brown is here! He decided to come a whole four weeks early.  I went into labor Tuesday morning (actually, it was probably more like Saturday that I started having back contractions) and he arrived Wednesday morning.  He was 6 pounds even and 19 1/2 inches long but I'll post more about that later.

He had to go to the NICU because his lungs weren't quite ready but he is doing really well.  After a very long first day, he turned the corner.  As of today, he is off oxygen and his IV has been disconnected.  Depending on what his blood sugar is at his next two feedings, he may be able to get the IV taken out.  It's in his head but it looks much worse than it is and he seems to like having his hands free.  He is also working on getting up to feedings of 48ml and is almost there.   He really loves meal time.

He has to be able to maintain his temperature in an open crib, gain weight, keep his oxygen off, and continue with 48ml feedings before he can go home.  He also has to tolerate sitting in a carseat for two hours.  He is making great progress and we are hoping that he is home by the middle of this week.

Change is coming

I feel like recently I have had a lot to pray for. I've prayed for friends who have lost loved ones. I've prayed for friends that welcoming new babies into their families. I've prayed for rain to come to the the dry Texas Panhandle. I've prayed for the safety of my family members.

I've also been praying for my family of two. I've had a few things on my heart and I've been praying that the Lord would help me make the right decisions. I want to do what is best for the both of us, not just what makes me temporarily happy. If you know me, you might know that I have a tendency to act spontaneously and maybe let my emotions take charge a little too much.

What all this comes down to is today I feel like the Lord showed me which path I need to take. I have made a pretty big decision about my future and I am completely at peace with it. I'm not scared. I'm not worried about any sacrifices I may have to make. I am 100% at peace and I feel like this means that I am making the right choice. There comes a time in your life when you have to do what is right for you and your family. I want to make everyone happy, so this is sometimes easier said than done.

I can't tell you what my decision is just yet, but I will keep you updated. My mind is made up and I am so excited to see what is next. Oh, and I promise the next blog will be a little bit lighter.